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I am not only a mother of four distinctly variable and wonderful adult children but also three interesting step-children as well. I have four incredible grandsons and two beautiful bi-racial grand-daughters who I would loved to see more. My life experiences that coexist with deep seeded chronic depression and uncontrolled internal pain have caused me to reflect, ponder, wallow, and root out my own methods for Mental Health, Spiritual Awakening, and Revelation. You as a reader may be able to relate to my experiences or think I am a freak. Who knows? You may even become a mentor to me and others. The opportunities are endless.

Monday, March 7, 2016

Daddy

This lyric is called Daddy. I awoke from a dream recalling some events from my past which triggered these thoughts and words. I wish I knew how to write music or could sing so you could here the melody behind the words and feel the emotional impact. So please just read the words and think about it.

Daddy
 
His hands were calloused from working on cars
 
Breath of whiskey night after night found at the local town bar
 
Fist like a hammer thrown down like Thor
 
Shards of glass all around
 
Dust settling on the ground as he tears apart the house once more
 
*
He's an angry man
A father who don't understand
The destructive path he has lead
Will create fear and dread
 
*
The children huddled up in the corner, heads down
 
Afraid to look up. Afraid to make a sound
 
Trying not to hear or see what they saw
 
But couldn't help themselves, peeked up and watched Mama on the floor
 
Trying to crawl...
 
Away
 
*
He's an angry man
Full of jet fuel drunk
he don't understand
that rage and fists of dynamite
will reverse some day
And he'll lose the fight
 
*
Black and blue Mama finally found her voice
 
No more patience, no more kindness, no more tolerance
 
Mama left behind the house of sticks
 
No foundation, only blood filled mud and broken bricks
 
She will cry for him not one more time
 
But the children are still in line
 
*
He's an angry man
Still drinking all day, it's his only plan
His boys now men, it's a level playing field
He's become weaker now
And his hammer does yield
He's a bitter man
 
*
The boys now men, they too find their voice
 
On has a hammer just like his bitter Old Man
 
The war IS on
 
Now Daddy understands
 
Just how it feels
 
When the love is gone
 
The lights go out, only pain is revealed
 
*
His son is an angry man
His son is a bitter man
Lost to drugs and alcohol
The relationship broken
Forever lost to all
 
*
His baby boy is angry too
A belligerent drunk
Proud to be like you
He's a mirror image and aren't you proud
He's an angry man
He's a bitter man
And... He don't understand


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